I guess the disciple I can most related to would be Simon Peter (Peter).
Before Peter became a disciple, you could tell he was an honest hard-working man who had great values and stood by what he believed. He was known to be short-tempered and hot-headed, but he was a man of integrity.
We can learn alot about Jesus through his relationship with Peter and how he responded to Peter.
I can understand why Jesus would have chosen him to be one of his disciples. Peter’s faith was great, yet simple.
When Jesus walked on water, the disciples thought it was a ghost, yet Jesus told them not to worry because it was him. Peter then said, “Lord, if it’s you, tell me to come to you on the water”. Peter then walked on water (Until he panicked with the strong wind and began to sink). Matthew 14:22-31.
Peter knew that if Jesus told him to walk on water, then he would be able to. He didn’t question whether he could, he didn’t ponder for a few minutes and think to himself whether he could or not, he just accepted without thought that if Jesus told him he could, then he could. It was only when he felt the wind and started to think about what he was doing and remembered the laws of gravity that he forgot his faith and began to sink.
Faith is not about thinking about something and trying to work it out before you decide whether it’s safe enough to do it. Faith is about knowing who God is and believing in Him.
We can also read a testament of Peter’s faith in Acts chapter’s 3 and 4 where Peter heals a cripple and creates a stir amongst the Sanhedrin. Peter KNEW it was only for the glory of God that someone would be healed, and he KNEW he was acting out of obedience to God when he was used for healing. He KNEW it was not by him that the cripple was healed, but by the power of God.
When the Sanhedrin questioned Peter by saying “By what power or what name did you do this”, Peter, filled with The Holy Spirit responded:
He is “the stone you builders rejected, which has become the capstone”, Salvation is found in no-one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to men by which we must be saved” Acts 4:8-12
Wow!!! can you imagine how much boldness, courage and strength in what Peter believed to have stood before the Sanhedrin to say that? I can just imagine how chuffed Jesus would have been with Peter at that time.
Peter was filled with The Holy Spirit which would have bought conviction with those words, but it just shows the faith of Peter, and his character of standing behind his beliefs to have said that, in obedience to God, yet not being afraid of what could have been the outcome. His faith was steadfast in God, he was testifying about who he knew to be the Son of the living God and his friend.
Jesus knew Peters faults, but he also knew the commitment of his heart. This is why I believe Jesus chose Simon Peter and said he would be the Rock on which Jesus would build his church. Matthew 16:18.
Peter messed up as much as we do, but Jesus never deserted him. Jesus loved him and would restore him when he failed, just as Jesus would do with us. Because we mess up, it doesn’t mean it’s the end for us, Jesus still knows us and still loves us and still has a plan to fulfil in our lives.
It is a matter of us putting out faith and confidence in God and believing in Him, not in the things that surround us. This the time that we begin to walk in righteousness according to His will fulfilling the purposes he has placed in our lives.
God doesn’t waste anything, even our failures, we still learn and God still uses them. Praise God!